I never got it, even in art school.

Did you too ever feel alienated by weird or abstract art?
These days it's very important to me. Find out how I help describe the bad wrap abstract art has and how to make nice. hear me talk about what this painting means to me.
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What do YOU think it means?
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AuthorApril DeMarco

What am I gaining by going through with this "Art Burning"? I am giving my self the opportunity to begin again with no preconceived notion of what my art should look like or be based on what I have created in the past. Many I know are going through different types of reinvention because they lost the job they had for 10, 15 or 20 years. What would you do if you could go back to being a young adult and were just about to embark on a your studies or  your first career? What wisdom would you bring with you that you gained from your life experiences? I have never met a person who said they would not have changed anything. This year I will begin over AGAIN  and it will be my turn to try on different choices.

"It's not to late to be what you might have been"

Since I have painted over, burned or let go of my old work and I filled with anticipation and excitement about limitless potentiality. Where do I possibly begin? This really begs to larger questions fit for anyone to dream whether an artist or not. If you could start over, go back in time to a turning point knowing what you  know now and make different choices, what would you be?

Where do I begin? I'll say it my trouble has been focus. Not discipline, but focus. In my rebellious nature of being pressured to choose one subject matter like all the cool kids do, I allowed myself to explore everything my heart desired. I think I would benefit to deepen my study and narrow my focus in 2014. I am not even sure this will work as I already am dreaming of figure studies, landscaped from Topanga Canyon in Malibu, CA, calligraphy lettering, and oh, yeah, mixed media.  

Maybe I should just call my stripes as they are but I am interested in a challenge, change and most of all growth! I know for sure that I am interested in working as often as I can and for the most joy I can find.

By this time next year no matter what happens, you can hold me to that joy part, for sure!

AuthorApril DeMarco

A writer once told me they threw away all their old journals. She didn't need them around to know what they said, she lived it. Who do I make work for? The answer should be that I make work for myself. I have tried to tap into the kind of art that people want to live with in their homes. I don't think this has anywhere but to the point of where I know less what my "one" voice is. That is if we have only "one true voice." Being physically crowded by art holds powerful energy from the past and suggests a non urgency to re invent or grow. Imagine hanging only pictures from your glory days in high school, never shedding those old nicknames or growing personally. Being surrounded by old art for me inhibits new creations from the feeling of resourcefulness. You wouldn't buy a gallon of milk if you have two already in the fridge. It is hard to feel free to create when the doubtful emergence of old work collecting dust taunts you.

AuthorApril DeMarco

I have  many wonderful admirers and people who have graciously bought my work over the years. However, I don't think most realize that to love seeing art and agreeing that it should be around also understand they need to act and engage in buying art, I don't mean just my art. There is cheap art everywhere. Artist are masters at what I call The Self Esteem Discount. This does not just include the visual arts but musicians, actors and writers. Affordable art is everywhere.

AuthorApril DeMarco

At the end of 2013 I took a match and lit a piece of work on fire. Without ever consciously planning it, from the very first seconds I knew this is what I had been wanting to do for quite some time.  I am not into performance art per se. Ironically, when I posted this "Art Burning" it gathered more attention than any other single piece of art I ever made.

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That's right, at some point in your life when you've looked around at what you've accumulated, saved, built and hoarded, you felt so removed and disgusted that it all had to go! AND GO NOW! That is where I am at in my art career. But don't be mistaken that my act of Art Burning is for only one reason or purpose. I can tell you it began in a blink with an impulse, a match and my iphone after connecting for a single moment to what had been gestating for a very very long time. 

I am not doing this because I think my work is so magnificent and anyone should give a hoot. At the same time the awakenings I have come to about the committed life of an artist to their art is eye opening and very important. 

On the contrary, I look at my work and feel that disappointment to know it isn't the best of what I have to offer artistically. Whether anyone buys it or not, the work must go. 

Why? Why not just store it somewhere out of sight?  

Because that is just fake to me on so many levels. I don't want to acknowledge that my butt is big and my muffin top out of control so I will start to wear bigger clothes and not confront it? 

There is something so magical and powerful about art. It does have a life of it's own. When I look at my body of work today it's emotional ties and my ego keep me from being free to do something new rather just try to keep on improving on the past. 

I was asked this week how it felt to burn the self portrait you see in the first video.   I felt liberated, I felt free.  There are many great arguments I have heard why I should not do this. I have been begged not to get rid of my work. I may be wrong. I may regret this. I can only tell you that there is this strong certainty and clarity that comes when I say I am committed to it. It is an act of non attachment, the lessons  we all nod our heads to in yoga class. I am more than my art, I don't need to have it around as a journal of my experiences, I lived it. I am willing to follow the guidance that by letting it go there would be made an authentic space mentally and emotionally for growth.


AuthorApril DeMarco